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or i suck
romance sucks
age sucks
fuck
im so stupid
why don't i ever learn
i hate this shit
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| i guess no one really reads this xanga anymore. shoot i haven't even use it for so long, oh well.
i have been wondering about this question, where is this all going? it's been almost a year and i still miss high school and marchingband like no other. i don't know if it's because i lack social skills, or that i just haven't find the right people? maybe i should transfer to a bigger school to meet new people. but in the long run, i know sticking to laguna would be better for me.
i don't know where does the limit of being a roommate stops. i know i want too much, that i don't want my roommate to just be someone who shares rent the with, someone who pays the other half of the bill, but a friend too. i know that would be too much to ask for, but i can't help it. i don't like it when my roommate brings a guy home and sleeps in the livingroom. there are only so much space in this apartment that i can't avoid them.
maybe i really just can't understand the value of a 28 years old. does age really makes a person THAT dramatically different? even if i am being mean for saying this, i honestly wish she would transfer back to SF. to be somewhat cheesy, i feel that if i just step back a little and focus my attention else where, i should be fine. i can't let anything interrupt my concentration of study. but how can i do it when everyday i have to deal with something i don't like at this temporary "home"? i use to wish my roommate was more home, but now i just wish she wouldn't come home at all. maybe i am a social freak. i can't deal with people.
i know this is being very selfish, but i really wish she would be more considerate as well. such as talk to me before she decides anyone, especially not just someone, but a guy who is romantically interested in her, could just stay over. i've been trying to understand her logic. if i were to have mikey stay over without telling her beforehand, i wouldn't feel it's not okay, but just because mikey is her friend too. and i certainly wouldn't sleep with him in the living room. it's funny how she feels like she needs to ask for my permission for her friend to come over and not for a guy to stay over.
it's ganna be a few more weeks, and it's ganna be all over. i can't wait for summer break.
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| I AM FUCKING PISSED.!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AT HONDA DEALERS AND THE STUPID HITECH COLLISION AUTO CARE SHOOP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
oh my fucking god, how fucking long does it take to ship an auto part from japan????????? fucking 2 month??????????? fucking retards!!!!!
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| if there's one thing that bothers me about my roommate is that her crazy schedule. doesn't come home until past midnight and wake up at 8 or 830 make a lot of noise getting ready, always rushed. makes me very uneasy and tired just watching her. sigh.
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